alter bridge=open their eyes

just suddenly this haunts me, probably because of Tammy ü
anyway this band came out after the disbandment of CREED
anyway i crush the vocalist here ayiiii ♥

O' star

I'll never get over this
The star came down to give me its kiss
Oh the moment of eternal bliss
Oh i couldn't ask for anything else than this

August brings the happiest tears
I'll never forget this time of the year
And nothing else shall I fear
That I have hold you so near

I'll never get over this
The star came down and shed its light upon me
From the smile that used to be way million miles from me
Starlight O' let your warmth and light stay with me please

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from the starlight series. ^_^ this entry is made almost after a year hooray!!!
august 25, 2009. nina don't forget about it ♥

sunday sick leave

A happy sunday to all.... :(

I can't make it to our meeting today because I still feel terrible because of this fever thingy, though my fever's already gone down... I still experience headaches and of course the never ending difficulty in breathing, and oh! plus the phlegm, the super massive one. yummmmy!

ok so much for my gross description of how i literally am... i really feel so exhausted and i haven't started anything today. i'm supposed to be taking a rest but i know that it won't do me any good, i can't let time pass by and leave my activities behind, it has to go on also... like me. and so here i am in front of the computer, with eyes burning. i can't start my reaction paper for literature... what the hell is wrong with my brains... omf blah

right now all i wanna do is pause for a while and look away and breathe
but i can't, i'm worrying too much for the others especially jasmine, our segment editor
it feels so bad that i can't join them today to think that i am their segment scriptwriter. though they said it'll be okay and i need to get well and rest... i really feel so guilty...

floating

got back from our class outing at antipolo... and i feel like floating. i havent drunk alcohol but it seems like there's no difference with our situation now. all of this that i'm feeling is because i'm so sick. i have cough and colds and headache. FEVER! but i nevertreatedfever asfever so I'll be going to school tomorrow still, and we need to shoot our segment.... aw. night

pinked

why look away, when i know you're somewhere close from me.. really! ♥

how do you know that you love/like someone? ...
it's when he's all you think about...
especially when he's gone haha ^_______^

apples

just got home from set-making and watching the play "apples in the dessert" in ccp. the guy is hotness! i love his voice!!! i wanna find a dubi!!!

got nothing really to say. just for the sake of a post...

what really happened today...
i tripped up the stairs, got a wound from it on my right arms... tsk
i cut my fingers with the cutter during our set -making.... aw
i broke my shoes... so i have to buy a new one..... demn, i'm so broke

thats it! i have to go now! ^_^

the one that got away by mark macapagal

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with…and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter. All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here today?” You’ll wonder, “What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?” That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest “What if?” you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a “might have been,” but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple…find him, find her. Because the very existence of a “one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be “the one that got away” as well for the person who is your “the one that got away.”

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, “Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away.”

end

you are not alone

VENTING!
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there are eight billion people in the world
you are not alone
you are not special and
you are too insensitive
but you are also being too insensitive
with what you say and do
if you think this is your world, well
there are eight billion others
who thinks of the same thing
so think of them too
and how they feel
with what you say and do
cause if you can't stand them
maybe they can't stand you more
just you
so remember that you are not alone
there are eight billion people in this world
who have lives that make them special too
and not only you...

isang kanta

i made a song. YAY! not yet through though... still lacks musical accompaniment and final rhythm, pending commission with PATTY ü

enjy this first as a prose ok?!
no stealing please... and read previous entry for the related blog
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ang pait lilipas din
malunod ng alat ng luha
na lumipas din
tinuyo ng araw ng
bagong umagang dumating

at ang nakaraan
mananatili na lang
di na aasahan pa na magbabalik
kahit pa sa panaginip

ano mang lalim
ng yong paghimbing at minimithi
hihipan yan ng hangin
ika'y matatauhan din

kung kailan nagbabalik
bumitiw na'ng kapit
wala na an pag-asa na
sagipin ang mga nagdaan
(ulitin ang nasimulan)

at ang nakaraan
mananatili na lang
di na umaasa na magbabalik
kahit sa panaginip

isang araw ka'y magigising
nandyan pa'ng alaala
ang damdami'y ubos na
nandiyan pang alaala
ngunit mauubos din
wala ng pait at alat
lumipas na
buhat ng magising
isang umaga

close encounters of the 3rd kind

right when i thought and spoke out that I think I'll never be able to see you again, I saw you... at an unexpected moment, an unexpected place, at an unexpected phase of my life. I'm so graced to see you and that I was given the courage to call you, and look at you and speak to you, the things I wish I could do If I'd be given a chance just to see you... and it all came true, right when I saw you.

I just hope that you did not get me wrong that moment cause I knew I'd been freaking out, stunned right after we parted. But honestly, I'm true as to what I've said before this day happened, that even if I see you again, I have already lost hopes on en everything I thought we could have been before. I just woke up one day thinking of this and it feels so great to be moving forward with life, after all, I already got what I have asked for since the first time we severed, like to have you back in this life, even if not as the more than friends but as the occasional friend or probably a stranger who i can co-exist in this big world of conspiracies and collide at the times that fate would be wishing.

Everything's changed. Nothing's changed! I'll never forget you and regret a single thing. Cause once there was a beautiful thing that kept me alive on the coldest and darkest nights. The kind of thing that did not physically lasted but continues to live in the heart for infinity, that has left inspirations, traumas and lessons and above all, a better and stronger me. So thank you.

i wish

i could write everything down, the way it popped out from my mind the very first time... the exact goodness from the first time cause i try to blog it after wards, but then the momentum was gone..

august 2009 art! smile and melt

another long day

cause a lot happened today really.
a shout out to all who are celebrating their birthdays today!
i know a number of people weeeee
including my dear PATTY and ASHLEY and cousin JONG and uncle ROMY
and a lot like my sister's co pt in makati

btw special thanks to all who shared their blessings
PATTY and kuya ROMY
*burp! ^_^

ghost writing

kumusta ka na aking sinta
hindi ko maipinta
anong luksa nadarama
buhat ng lumisan ka
ngunit ding hindi matatanggi
ngiting minsa'y iyong dinampi
sa aking labi di mababawi
at gabi gabi umaasa pa sa iyong pag uwi
sa aking piling gaya ng minsang sandaling
ang habang buhay ay dumapo
sa buhay kong ito, isang anghel

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an ambush poem that i made for my cousin Mike ü

papers for breakfast lunch snacks and dinner

yes i mean it, that i want papers! i really love papers cause i use them in scribbling and doodling but NOT NOW! i have a gazillion piled sheets to study and stuff.... nooooooooooooooooooooooo

pray it won't fade away

let me keep you... oh fire

the long day :3

• Mood: Relief
• Listening to: crush crush crush

<sub>tenten i got a lot to say to you... i got a lot to say
(tune: crush crush crush by paramore ^^)

yeah that's right, it's just that my life has been becoming so fast phased recently and i can't seem to detail everything down now... i'll try my best though haha

i've been thinking of a lot of things really, though i have already let go of some of the things that i am also supposed to be thinking of, and the week had been really an epitome of purgatory, waiting for the judgment day and stuff like that and that is the reason why i feel so happy that our second prod went quite well today. i no longer have to worry about my set design and stuff, no more guilt of coercing my team mates to work for my(our) set and no more thinking of how to do the ingress on tuesday cause it did already happenned this morning and it went okay and i really would like to thank everyone in the team for helping me out in the set and making everything possible... i don't know if i'll ever be a production designer again but i swear that i really enjoyed this once in a lifetime experience, and by the way, i also would like to thank this production set for the remembrance that it gave me weeeeeeeeee, i had a cut on my forefinger and that means i can't draw seriously lately, and it's a bit saddening why do i have to lose my hand at this time when we get a little bit of freedom... another big thanks for the super holiday filled week. this week, we won't be stressed too much... hopefully *crossesfingers.

sorry for the rant like detail of my tv rod experiences but it is just normal haha
the long day.... yey!
me and my friends went to QUIAPO today and we shopped all the way tp reduce stress and blah haha... we bought dvds and other cheap finds around and it feels so great. we can't wait for our next teambuilding as we call it haha!

btw, me and maya are also planning of a jamming slash sleepover slash animating project one of these days and i can't wait for that!!! and as well as the many other things that i have in mind and wishes to accomplish!!! raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

yet one of the greatest things now, is that i don't have to wake up early tomorrow! yay!
it's actually a special holiday tomorrow but i have to meet with my RE family to have the conference for our next prod... atleast i won't wake up because of an alarm clock... that would be fine!

i'll have SLEEP yey!
and please....more tofi luk and quaker oats cookiesssssssssssssssss
keep me ALIVE!!!</sub>

over

the fighting is over now-urbandub