a broken heart: on not waiting for the opportunity, making it rather!

Sometimes in life, you'll get this feeling of badly wanting something that you're willing to do anything to have it ... but then there's always these set of obstacles that keeps you from getting that something.  They told you to wait, because there'll be a better opportunity someday. But till when? How long am I going to wait??? ... I've waited long enough, this may be the better opportunity.  But then again, too many things hold this torn heart of mine back. Like waiting for the much better opportunity, when I get to save up for the better brand. Right when I've fully decided on settling with the not so expensive (still not cheap) brand.  I thought that it'd be okay since I'm just a beginner.  I should stop worrying about how long will it last with me, cause I've always used the other decision and in the end what?  I still haven't achieved any of those dreams, like the guitar, that I shouldn't buy the low class slash cheap thousand bucks worth guitar because it won't last long, and now, I shouldn't buy a low class slash cheap drawing tablet cause it won't last long either.  But what can I do when these are the only things that I can afford since I'm not yet earning, isn't it understandable that it'll be okay to have these things with my semi-owned money(since it still came from allowance) though cheap but at least I have these heart for buying it and good intentions as well and the sincerity to save for it.  I'll wait for a day or two... I understand your point don't get me wrong.  I'm just fighting for my hardheadedness this time, cause I can't wait, cause I think thatthere's nothing really to wait for... so why not MAKE THE OPPORTUNITY? rather than WAIT FOR IT 

tabbie...